I can't wait to hear about the trip and I know God is going to do some great things in using them down there. And, I am positive He will work in the guys' hearts and lives as well. I have to admit, I was not too happy about Shawn going on the trip in the first place. To be honest - I'm still struggling with him being there...
I'm not really even sure why. Obviously, that's where God wants him to be or there would have been some reason he couldn't go. Last time I wasn't very upset. Yes, I missed him, but it wasn't as bad.
I feel like the timing couldn't be worse. We're getting married in 3 months and I'm completely overwhelmed and stressed out (that's gotten better, though, since we got a lot done these past 2 weeks). We still don't have a house and I am so far from done in the planning department. It embarrasses me to even use that as an excuse for why Shawn shouldn't have gone on the trip. I am mad at myself for even thinking like that. These people need God even more than I need Shawn. It's a different kind of need, I know. I am being selfish and I know it.
I know another reason is because I have no "control" over what happens down there (it's an issue I have to work on). Though, I really have no control over what happens here, either. No, it's not completely unsafe where they're going. But, it's not really safe either. And that scares me. A LOT.
I almost cried this morning when he left. I am not used to that - it's not like we haven't gone this long without seeing each other before. Maybe I am just more worried this time around because we're about to be married. Perhaps the stress of everything happening at once and so quickly is getting to me?
Overall, I'm trying to have peace and trust God about it. They've left El Paso with Chad and are on their way (or there already) to New Mexico to go over the border. So far. So good.
* Update (6/6/09 - 4:40 pm): The guys have made it into Mexico! Shawn said getting across the border was much easier than last time. They'll be where they're going soon(sort of).
* Update (6/6/09 - 8:20 pm): "We just made it into Chih. So far we are doing great." ~ Bill Hayes
* Update (6/6/09 - 9:30 pm): In Chihuahua, 'relaxing' at a hotel. Tomorrow's agenda: church service at the mission church (Tim Clark is leading the children's ministry) and witnessing in Creel. Some of the guys bought calling cards and have called home. Shawn must not have been one of them, because I haven't heard a thing :/
* Update (6/7/09 - 8:30 am): Mel heard from Davelate last night - he has a cold and isn't feeling his best. Pray that he gets better, he can't be sick the whole time. Still haven't heard from Shawn. Frustrated...