Why is this so hard for me?

Saturday, February 28, 2009 3 comments
We have to give our testimonies in small groups tomorrow. Everyone else probably has theirs all written and knows exactly what to say. Myself? Completely the opposite.

I'm not sure why I'm finding this so hard. I've been a Christian for pretty much as long as I can remember. Of course, there are times when my faith has faltered and I've "walked away." But, I've never been far from God's reach. I know this. I know all the "right" words. I just feel like my testimony is semi-boring (no, I'm not going to make anything up, of course).

I have sat down to write it and figure it out numerous times this week - to no avail. I still have nothing written and, clearly, nothing prepared. I don't even know where to begin. Even the outline or whatever in the book hasn't been much help. Writing has never been hard for me - even things like this.

I know, I'm making it sound like it's some school assignment or something. I can't even think clearly... This past month has held a host of ups and downs. I've seen God's hands in many ways this past month.

There's a huge possibility this won't get done by tomorrow either. There's always next month, I guess. Maybe hearing other people's will be an encouragement to me or give me some idea of where to go with it.

Any advice?


  • John said...

    Andi....I am the same way, my story seems so everyday...I can't remember a time in my life when God wasn't a part of it...but there is a few times I can remember when the Lord really made an impact on my life course...and I knew it was Him ..maybe not the why but I knew His hand was moving me. Maybe you are the same ...even in your 20+ to my 60 years !! Just a thought....you will make it...just relax and let God's spirit work..He will give you the inspiration needed....try reading
    2 Peter 1;20-21..Not that your tesimony is prophesy ,SMILE.but,(wo)men spoke from God as they were carried along by the Holy Spirit.
    See you later Andi, Love you Patti Sandbek

  • Davesgirl said...

    It was great to hear everyone's testimonies, and it did give ideas and take the pressure off, didn't it?? I think you know just what to say, it is just being vulnerable enough to say it. That is why I can always do better one on one with testimonies- I get personal really quick one on one, but in a group- not so much :)

    You'll get it- God has done so much in your life, you'll find a way to put it into words!

  • prov3130grl said...

    thanks for the encouragement, ladies!

    i don't feel quite so worried about it anymore, but, of course, the nerves are still there.

    but, you're right, mel - speaking in a group is a lot harder that one-on-one...

    at least i have a few more weeks to keep trying...

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