"Grandfathers are for loving and fixing things." ~*~ Anonymous ~*~
As many of you know, my grandfather (my Dad's dad - in Florida) really hasn't been doing 100% well for quite some time. But, it seemed that he took a turn for the worst. He couldn't remember what year it was, his foot was turning black, and wouldn't eat or walk. My parents rushed home from their anniversary trip on Sunday night and flew to Florida early Monday morning. They've been there (along with my Uncle Mike) since then and we still have no word on when they're coming home, though Mom may be on Friday or Saturday.
The doctors found that my grandfather has a bacterial infection in his blood and that's why he hasn't been acting correctly or really having any idea what is happening. It seemed like he was pretty close to dying Sunday night, but since Monday he has been coherent (mostly), talking (but still tired) and knowing who everyone is, and eating a little more. Everyone who goes into the room has to wear a plastic "suit" and gloves, etc. We're not expecting any "miracles," but it does seem as though he's recovering for the moment.
My parents are still somewhat unsure about what exactly is going on - meaning: he could be getting better, but he may not. It's still a little up in the air. That's as much as I know and what I can understand. Prayers are much appreciated, as always... everything's so discombobulated.
This has hit me pretty hard what with losing my grandmother (my Mom's mom) in January and not knowing what is happening with my grandfather. It's different than when I lost my grandmother. I was sad and upset when she died (especially when I couldn't be there because I was sick), but we kind of saw that coming. She'd been sick for so long and hadn't remembered who I was in even longer. I didn't go to see her much as my grandfather typically came down here. I hadn't seen her for a year before she died. So, yes, that upset me to no end - I feel like I didn't get that time with her. But, with my grandfather - it happened kind of suddenly. He was supposed to be recovering from his last surgery and/or procedure.
With everything happening with my grandfather - I almost completely lost it Sunday night. I haven't been able to go down and visit them for almost 2 years. I haven't really spoken to him much (except sporadically) since Shawn & I got engaged in August. I wanted this to be different and I was hoping I'd get a chance to make more of an effort. Granted, it is hard making it down to Florida often (and, realistically, it wouldn't be possible for that to happen too frequently). To some people, it may not seem like a big deal to lose grandparents they don't see or talk to often. But, for me it is - even though none have lived around here for almost as far back as I can remember, I still love them and am pretty close to all of them. A few years ago, it may not have mattered this much. But as I've gotten older I value things differently.
I am hoping he gets better - I am still going down to Florida May 4th thru 10th as planned (at least, for now). And, hopefully, that will become a reality and everything will be ok... we'll see. I want them to be at my wedding in 5 months, I want them to see me have children, I WANT MORE TIME!!!!!!!!
** Update (I know, that was quick) ** My grandfather is having a CAT scan tonight (hopefully). They are taking the port out of his chest and while they're doing that - they're going to look at the infection on his leg as well. It's pretty serious and they may end up having to take some of his leg. I don't knoooooooooow **